300 calories
1 spring vegetable cup-o-soup - 50
1 20g mushroom - 4
5 tbsp liquid egg whites - 42
85g chicken breast - 85
1 stick gum - 5
1 apple sauce - 50
1 fat free sugar free yogurt - 35
Total: 271/300
Exercise: 20 minutes light exercise
Liquids: Done. 1 cup green tea, 1 cup mint tea, 4 cups water, and a couple glasses of diet rootbeer and coke zero each.
Ugh today was hard. Had to pull out the anti-binge kit today, since I was really feeling pressured to eat. Instead I grabbed a stick of gum, read off my very personal list of reasons not to binge and to continue restricting, and then went over the list I made of other things to do right that moment besides eat. So I cleaned out the cat box, washed out the toilet, and then had a cup of mint tea. I got through it okay.
Sunday, November 28, 2010
Saturday, November 27, 2010
ABC Day 2
Day 2 - 500 calories
172g pear - 100
6 tbsp liquid egg whites - 50
53g celery - 7
1 package (85g) smoked herring - 130
1 100 cal package smartpop - 100
1 100 cal package smartpop - 100
Total: 487/500
Exercise: 33 minutes of various cardio, core, upper and lower body on the EA Sports Active 2 game.
Liquids: done. 2 cups green tea, 5 cups water, and coke zero and diet a&w rootbeer throughout the day.
Done and done. Picked up some melatonin at the drug store today, and Im hoping it helps my insomnia. I havent been able to sleep more than 4-5 hours in a 24 hours period, and cannot sleep more than an hour at a time it seems. not to mention the 1-2 hours it takes to fall asleep. Throughout the month Ive tried everything from relaxation, breathing, tons of sleeping pills, bother perscription and non. So i'm going to try the melatonin, because it used to make me sleep really well since it helped me get more restful sleep. So even if I sleep say only an hour and a half, at least it'll be better than the hours i was getting before.
Bought veg at the store today too. Was running out. Got some chives and mushrooms to add to my broths I'll be having on monday for my 100 cal day. But yeah I'm prepared to attempt sleep. G'night
172g pear - 100
6 tbsp liquid egg whites - 50
53g celery - 7
1 package (85g) smoked herring - 130
1 100 cal package smartpop - 100
1 100 cal package smartpop - 100
Total: 487/500
Exercise: 33 minutes of various cardio, core, upper and lower body on the EA Sports Active 2 game.
Liquids: done. 2 cups green tea, 5 cups water, and coke zero and diet a&w rootbeer throughout the day.
Done and done. Picked up some melatonin at the drug store today, and Im hoping it helps my insomnia. I havent been able to sleep more than 4-5 hours in a 24 hours period, and cannot sleep more than an hour at a time it seems. not to mention the 1-2 hours it takes to fall asleep. Throughout the month Ive tried everything from relaxation, breathing, tons of sleeping pills, bother perscription and non. So i'm going to try the melatonin, because it used to make me sleep really well since it helped me get more restful sleep. So even if I sleep say only an hour and a half, at least it'll be better than the hours i was getting before.
Bought veg at the store today too. Was running out. Got some chives and mushrooms to add to my broths I'll be having on monday for my 100 cal day. But yeah I'm prepared to attempt sleep. G'night
Thursday, November 25, 2010
ABC Day 1
Yeah I fubared yesterday so started over today. Same goals as before still apply to the next 7 days.
1 fat free sugar free yogurt - 35
1 string cheese - 60
1/2 can chunky soup - 162
1 80g chicken breast - 80
1/2 can chunky soup - 162
Total Calories: 499/500
Exercise: 40 minutes of various cardio, core, upper and lower body on the EA Sports Active 2 game.
Liquids: Done. 6 cups water, 2 green teas, several glasses coke zero and diet a&w rootbeer.
Today was easy enough. Got That EA Sports Active 2 for my Wii yesterday when I went shopping for presents. Very cool. I HATE exercising, but this is actually just what I needed. Something to tell me what to do, how long to do it for, and so on. It actually works you surprisingly hard. I had my doubts because its a console 'game'. But its really just like working out at the gym. Hopefully I can stick with it.
Anyway, just finished off the other half of that soup, so I'm going to chill with some TV and then go to bed. G'night.
1 fat free sugar free yogurt - 35
1 string cheese - 60
1/2 can chunky soup - 162
1 80g chicken breast - 80
1/2 can chunky soup - 162
Total Calories: 499/500
Exercise: 40 minutes of various cardio, core, upper and lower body on the EA Sports Active 2 game.
Liquids: Done. 6 cups water, 2 green teas, several glasses coke zero and diet a&w rootbeer.
Today was easy enough. Got That EA Sports Active 2 for my Wii yesterday when I went shopping for presents. Very cool. I HATE exercising, but this is actually just what I needed. Something to tell me what to do, how long to do it for, and so on. It actually works you surprisingly hard. I had my doubts because its a console 'game'. But its really just like working out at the gym. Hopefully I can stick with it.
Anyway, just finished off the other half of that soup, so I'm going to chill with some TV and then go to bed. G'night.
Tuesday, November 23, 2010
ABC day 1
Before listing my calorie intake for the day, I have a couple of goals I've set for myself for this week, while undergoing the ABC.
Goals
1: Have 2 cups green tea, and 4 cups water daily
2: Despite hating exercise, try to aim for 20 minutes of any physical activity, daily. (time not completed must be added onto the next day)
3: Do something nice for myself (with the intent of being nice to myself. So nothing for other reasons, then calling it that something nice. Have to have the intent)
1 can light campbell's vegetable soup - 136
1 (85g) mini pizza - 190
2 cups of plain tea - 0
Total: 326
Exercise: None. Wasn't feeling physically well today. (will have to do 40 minutes tomorrow)
Liquids: Done. (had the water and tea)
Nice Activity: Painted my nails and had a nice time.
Well under today. I wanted to eat closer to the 500, but didn't. I put off eating anything until late tonight, but didn't anticipate that I would get sleepy so unusually early for me. Bed time now
Goals
1: Have 2 cups green tea, and 4 cups water daily
2: Despite hating exercise, try to aim for 20 minutes of any physical activity, daily. (time not completed must be added onto the next day)
3: Do something nice for myself (with the intent of being nice to myself. So nothing for other reasons, then calling it that something nice. Have to have the intent)
1 can light campbell's vegetable soup - 136
1 (85g) mini pizza - 190
2 cups of plain tea - 0
Total: 326
Exercise: None. Wasn't feeling physically well today. (will have to do 40 minutes tomorrow)
Liquids: Done. (had the water and tea)
Nice Activity: Painted my nails and had a nice time.
Well under today. I wanted to eat closer to the 500, but didn't. I put off eating anything until late tonight, but didn't anticipate that I would get sleepy so unusually early for me. Bed time now
Saturday, November 20, 2010
Ugh
So for about a week Ive been on a binge-restrict/fast cycle. It's disgusting. Some binge days I clock over 2k in calories. I feel so ashamed.
I'm going back on ABC on monday. I will stick to it until Christmas, and I'm going to make that a promise, so that I feel more obligated to hold true to that. ABC seems to work better for me. I can have the things I like and spend my calories how I want, but still have limits to adhere to. So yeah I'm going to give it all the effort I've got.
Well apparently, it snowed the other day here. I fucking hate the cold. It bothers me a lot. Plus we have a flight of stairs to climb up and down just to get to the front door, and its dangerous going up and down them with the snow. >_< I have no intentions of going to the gym given that it is snowy outside, and cold. I can't do an hour walk in the snow just to do something else that I can't stand doing on top of it. Hopefully it warms up. But for now I'll stick to weights, pilates, and ddr, provided that I actually get off my ass to do these things consistantly. Ugh I HATE physical exertion.
I'm going back on ABC on monday. I will stick to it until Christmas, and I'm going to make that a promise, so that I feel more obligated to hold true to that. ABC seems to work better for me. I can have the things I like and spend my calories how I want, but still have limits to adhere to. So yeah I'm going to give it all the effort I've got.
Well apparently, it snowed the other day here. I fucking hate the cold. It bothers me a lot. Plus we have a flight of stairs to climb up and down just to get to the front door, and its dangerous going up and down them with the snow. >_< I have no intentions of going to the gym given that it is snowy outside, and cold. I can't do an hour walk in the snow just to do something else that I can't stand doing on top of it. Hopefully it warms up. But for now I'll stick to weights, pilates, and ddr, provided that I actually get off my ass to do these things consistantly. Ugh I HATE physical exertion.
Sunday, November 7, 2010
Im such a fat ass
Wow today was terrible. Emotionally things were horrible for me. I was anxious and distressed and stressed out and everything going on made me feel terrible. I want to take some courses at our university here, but its so expensive and I don't have money (especially seeing as how I live on disability checks.) and i don't want a loan because our government issued student loans are very very hard to pay back, (and what with the possibility of needing to move to the states and that happening before i get the opprotunity to pay off the whole loan) yeah. And i don't want debt. and there's drama with friends, and yeah just tons of things right now that aren't putting me in a good frame of mind.
And well this stuff totally ruined my day, diet wise. I definitely didn't fast. In fact I was so depressed, that I went out and bought food, completely on the intent to binge. And I did. Now I don't want to say how much it was, because it's embarrassing, but I feel I should be public with it, because the embarrassment might be a determent. So over the course of the past 5-6 hours I managed to consume 3600 calories. Give or take a calorie or two. That fucking disgusting. Of course after every little binge (there were 3), I NEEDED to get the food out of me. Now I don't purge through vomiting, for SEVERAL reasons. (the biggest being I promised my fiance i wouldn't, and also it's terrible for my teeth, and I lack the ability to pay for dental. So instead, I took laxatives. Now I by no means abuse laxatives on a regular basis. It's only for the binges where I really can't feel alright with that much food in me. Where the physical discomfort and the mental discomfort are unbearable. So I took about a total of 6 lax over all. And Ive just finished in the bathroom, and taken my sleeping pill and I'm so so very ready to leave this day behind me (fuck you daylight savings! way to give me another hour to this shitty day -_-)
I WILL fast tomorrow for sure. Its the last day of this week, and I want to make sure I didn't completely go through this week empty-handed in the way of losing pounds or inches or that sort of thing. If I don't have a thing to do tomorrow with friends of mine, then I will for sure be hitting the gym loaded on caffeinated tea and ready to punch out a super long session. Rain or shine. And hell, if not tomorrow, then I'll make it a priority all next week.
Ive also been considering one week this month; not this coming week, but the week after, of doing the master cleanse. I tried it once before, but to be honest I wasn't doing it as was written. I really feel like maybe 10 days of proper master cleanse, complete with evening laxative tea and morning salt water flush, may be something that I can benefit from. I'll look around and see what kind of cash it would cost me to supply myself enough for the 10 days, and just think about it.
But yeah I should get some sleep. God dammit, I think I need another pill. This one I took like a half hour ago, and I'm still not tired. -.-
And well this stuff totally ruined my day, diet wise. I definitely didn't fast. In fact I was so depressed, that I went out and bought food, completely on the intent to binge. And I did. Now I don't want to say how much it was, because it's embarrassing, but I feel I should be public with it, because the embarrassment might be a determent. So over the course of the past 5-6 hours I managed to consume 3600 calories. Give or take a calorie or two. That fucking disgusting. Of course after every little binge (there were 3), I NEEDED to get the food out of me. Now I don't purge through vomiting, for SEVERAL reasons. (the biggest being I promised my fiance i wouldn't, and also it's terrible for my teeth, and I lack the ability to pay for dental. So instead, I took laxatives. Now I by no means abuse laxatives on a regular basis. It's only for the binges where I really can't feel alright with that much food in me. Where the physical discomfort and the mental discomfort are unbearable. So I took about a total of 6 lax over all. And Ive just finished in the bathroom, and taken my sleeping pill and I'm so so very ready to leave this day behind me (fuck you daylight savings! way to give me another hour to this shitty day -_-)
I WILL fast tomorrow for sure. Its the last day of this week, and I want to make sure I didn't completely go through this week empty-handed in the way of losing pounds or inches or that sort of thing. If I don't have a thing to do tomorrow with friends of mine, then I will for sure be hitting the gym loaded on caffeinated tea and ready to punch out a super long session. Rain or shine. And hell, if not tomorrow, then I'll make it a priority all next week.
Ive also been considering one week this month; not this coming week, but the week after, of doing the master cleanse. I tried it once before, but to be honest I wasn't doing it as was written. I really feel like maybe 10 days of proper master cleanse, complete with evening laxative tea and morning salt water flush, may be something that I can benefit from. I'll look around and see what kind of cash it would cost me to supply myself enough for the 10 days, and just think about it.
But yeah I should get some sleep. God dammit, I think I need another pill. This one I took like a half hour ago, and I'm still not tired. -.-
Saturday, November 6, 2010
Hmm
So I had a nice chat with my fiance, but there were some very depressing topics. And It caused me to eat more than I should have today. I wanted to stay around 400/500 ish, and ended up having 800 today. I wont post what I ate, but ugh.
Yesterday was great though and I fasted with no problems. However, last night I couldn't sleep. I tried to lay down at 2am yesterday and tossed and turned, and it wasnt an overactive mind that was keeping me up. In fact it was hunger. And I finally fell asleep and then woke up again at like 5am, and then was up for hours and hours trying to get back to bed. So after doing this song and dance for awhile, at around 9am I finally ate something. Which isnt typical of me, because Im never up before 11am-noon. I normally dont eat that early. Well then I tried to sleep again and couldnt, and had something else at 11am, and finally went to bed at noon, woke up around 8pm, and ugh. Ate breakfast, was doing okay, then me and the SO had that talk which was nice, but then the depressing topics happened with the holidays and all this other stuff, and after he left, I was nowhere near tired, considering I had woken up not too long ago.
So I ended up depressed, and I ate. So yeah rather than what I should have had, I had double that. The limit today was 400 and I hit 800. So to make up for it, instead of fasting tomorrow and doing the next day of skinny girl on sunday, I'll be fasting both sat and sun.
Im gonna pop a sleeping pill and get to bed now, before I turn an 800 day into a binge.
Yesterday was great though and I fasted with no problems. However, last night I couldn't sleep. I tried to lay down at 2am yesterday and tossed and turned, and it wasnt an overactive mind that was keeping me up. In fact it was hunger. And I finally fell asleep and then woke up again at like 5am, and then was up for hours and hours trying to get back to bed. So after doing this song and dance for awhile, at around 9am I finally ate something. Which isnt typical of me, because Im never up before 11am-noon. I normally dont eat that early. Well then I tried to sleep again and couldnt, and had something else at 11am, and finally went to bed at noon, woke up around 8pm, and ugh. Ate breakfast, was doing okay, then me and the SO had that talk which was nice, but then the depressing topics happened with the holidays and all this other stuff, and after he left, I was nowhere near tired, considering I had woken up not too long ago.
So I ended up depressed, and I ate. So yeah rather than what I should have had, I had double that. The limit today was 400 and I hit 800. So to make up for it, instead of fasting tomorrow and doing the next day of skinny girl on sunday, I'll be fasting both sat and sun.
Im gonna pop a sleeping pill and get to bed now, before I turn an 800 day into a binge.
Thursday, November 4, 2010
Feeling decent but irritable.
So shit in my life today has left me irritable. Very very much so. I blew up at my roomie simply because they bickered about me getting our mail, without so much as a thank you. I was already irritable, but yeah I got pissed. But this is normal for borderline pd in me.
Anyway yesterday was great and I fasted as intended no problem. Had lots of water, tea and diet sodas. Today was the second day for skinny girl
Skinny Girl Diet - Day 2 - 300 calories
6 tbsp egg whites - 50
4 saltines - 48
125g of celery - n/a
4 saltines - 48
2 thin slices of deli chicken breast - 50
1 cup lettuce - n/a
1 small chicken breast - 95
1 tbsp salsa - 5
75g celery - n/a
296/300
So yeah not bad. Apparently my roomie bought a box of fucking ice cream sandwiches. Fucking hell I hate them. D= Whatever, I'm going to not go into the freezer anymore. Gonna finish my movie and go to bed. Fast tomorrow.
Anyway yesterday was great and I fasted as intended no problem. Had lots of water, tea and diet sodas. Today was the second day for skinny girl
Skinny Girl Diet - Day 2 - 300 calories
6 tbsp egg whites - 50
4 saltines - 48
125g of celery - n/a
4 saltines - 48
2 thin slices of deli chicken breast - 50
1 cup lettuce - n/a
1 small chicken breast - 95
1 tbsp salsa - 5
75g celery - n/a
296/300
So yeah not bad. Apparently my roomie bought a box of fucking ice cream sandwiches. Fucking hell I hate them. D= Whatever, I'm going to not go into the freezer anymore. Gonna finish my movie and go to bed. Fast tomorrow.
Tuesday, November 2, 2010
Ugh, new month, time of a new plan
Okay so I haven't posted in a couple days. Just shit with life being crappy and depression and stuff. I haven't been eating horribly though, but restricting to straight protein foods and under 20g of carbs just wasn't working for me at this point in my life. Maybe at a time when things weren't so stressful or problematic.
So Ive decided for the entire month of November, to combine alternate day fasting, with the skinny girl diet.
So basically it would be like: do 1st day of SG, fast, do 2nd day of SG, fast, do 3rd day of SG, fast, etc.
Here's the skinny girl diet, complete with the rules
I will be changing the rules around though, because I dont feel comfortable with them.
For starters, I am NOT comfortable ignoring the calorie count of most fruits and veggies. Especially things high in calories, like bananas, corn, peas, etc. So I will be counting the calories of EVERYTHING towards my daily totals, except for: lettuce, celery, & cucumbers. These are the ONLY foods I will not count towards my daily total.
I will be doing the 30 minutes of exercise 5x a week. On the fast days, this exercise will be walking, or yoga/pilates, and on non fast days, I will not consider walking as exercise. Rather things like weights, or cardio, or things like that.
And I will be doing extra exercise if I go over my calorie limits.
As for fasting, I'll be restricting myself to teas, water, & diet drinks. If I feel faint on a fast day, I will allow myself no more than 30 calories of broth.
So yeah thats the plan. Started today with day one of the skinny girl diet.
Skinny Girl Diet - Day 1 - 400 calories
8 mini rice chips - 60
1 full bag smart pop popcorn - 260
1 small chicken breast - 80
1/2 cucumber - n/a
400/400
Exercise: 30 minutes of ab and arm exercises.
Tomorrow is my fast day. I'm kind of sick, so I plan on just chilling in bed, maybe going for a small walk if weather permits.
So Ive decided for the entire month of November, to combine alternate day fasting, with the skinny girl diet.
So basically it would be like: do 1st day of SG, fast, do 2nd day of SG, fast, do 3rd day of SG, fast, etc.
Here's the skinny girl diet, complete with the rules
I will be changing the rules around though, because I dont feel comfortable with them.
For starters, I am NOT comfortable ignoring the calorie count of most fruits and veggies. Especially things high in calories, like bananas, corn, peas, etc. So I will be counting the calories of EVERYTHING towards my daily totals, except for: lettuce, celery, & cucumbers. These are the ONLY foods I will not count towards my daily total.
I will be doing the 30 minutes of exercise 5x a week. On the fast days, this exercise will be walking, or yoga/pilates, and on non fast days, I will not consider walking as exercise. Rather things like weights, or cardio, or things like that.
And I will be doing extra exercise if I go over my calorie limits.
As for fasting, I'll be restricting myself to teas, water, & diet drinks. If I feel faint on a fast day, I will allow myself no more than 30 calories of broth.
So yeah thats the plan. Started today with day one of the skinny girl diet.
Skinny Girl Diet - Day 1 - 400 calories
8 mini rice chips - 60
1 full bag smart pop popcorn - 260
1 small chicken breast - 80
1/2 cucumber - n/a
400/400
Exercise: 30 minutes of ab and arm exercises.
Tomorrow is my fast day. I'm kind of sick, so I plan on just chilling in bed, maybe going for a small walk if weather permits.
Thursday, October 28, 2010
Life sucks.
Yesterday's normal day was well, hard. Not even just the eating, but I had an incident happen to me yesterday, that i will not be sharing here.
It's 10pm now, and Im only having my first meal. the diet for this week is pretty much 400 to 600 calories a day of high protein, and under 20g carbs a day. So pretty much just going to put my body into ketosis, so that I can use my body's fat for fuel and burn it up, while still getting decent nutrition. Cuts out a lot of food groups for me, and I'm pretty much stuck to fish, cheese and eggs. But thats okay. I'll put up with it for a week.
Weight is 131, so thats cool. Met my goal for that week. Even after the normal day yesterday. I was 130, but I guess I gained a pound of water weight back from having ate as much food as i did yesterday. I say its water weight because my scale says my water content % is up from before. so yeah.
Whatever. It's been a hard day. I thought yesterday's experience (i wont say what it was, but it was of a sexual nature and i did have to go to the police for it.) would make me want to eat and eat and eat, but its done the opposite. I'm just not hungry at all. Sigh.
I might be up another 3 or 4 hours, but regardless, g'night.
It's 10pm now, and Im only having my first meal. the diet for this week is pretty much 400 to 600 calories a day of high protein, and under 20g carbs a day. So pretty much just going to put my body into ketosis, so that I can use my body's fat for fuel and burn it up, while still getting decent nutrition. Cuts out a lot of food groups for me, and I'm pretty much stuck to fish, cheese and eggs. But thats okay. I'll put up with it for a week.
Weight is 131, so thats cool. Met my goal for that week. Even after the normal day yesterday. I was 130, but I guess I gained a pound of water weight back from having ate as much food as i did yesterday. I say its water weight because my scale says my water content % is up from before. so yeah.
Whatever. It's been a hard day. I thought yesterday's experience (i wont say what it was, but it was of a sexual nature and i did have to go to the police for it.) would make me want to eat and eat and eat, but its done the opposite. I'm just not hungry at all. Sigh.
I might be up another 3 or 4 hours, but regardless, g'night.
Wednesday, October 27, 2010
Anxious
Okay so I got through the night yesterday. I breathe a sigh of relief.
Today 500 day. Had a slice of peanut butter toast, and a piece of leftover pizza.
Total: 405 for the day.
I'm done and going to bed tonight, since I have to pick up my check tomorrow. I'm apprehensive about tomorrow's 'normal' day, but I think it's necessary particularly for my metabolism. I'll be doing some exercise, too so hopefully, that normal amount of calories wont completely make me unbearably uncomfortable. And I hope for sure that I dont binge either.
Well bed time.
Today 500 day. Had a slice of peanut butter toast, and a piece of leftover pizza.
Total: 405 for the day.
I'm done and going to bed tonight, since I have to pick up my check tomorrow. I'm apprehensive about tomorrow's 'normal' day, but I think it's necessary particularly for my metabolism. I'll be doing some exercise, too so hopefully, that normal amount of calories wont completely make me unbearably uncomfortable. And I hope for sure that I dont binge either.
Well bed time.
Tuesday, October 26, 2010
I've had 445 calories today, and I can feel myself fighting back a binge. Its been creeping up on me all day, and Im already over my abc amount for today by 45 calories. It doesnt help that the roomies bought pizza and I had to have a slice while they made me watch some dumb movie. Ugh, probably 300 cals even though it was thin crust veggie. I dunno though Im just guessing.
Im not sure what to do really. Things have been hard right now, and its tough. I think I might set the limit to 700, and then just go with that. I've still got 3 hours to go through before bed, and it's just soo hard. I'm hungry, but Im also distressed, warn down, and too tired to fight my feelings, but not tired enough to get sleep.
If I can find my sleeping pills though, then Im just going to take those and sleep. Yeah thats the plan.
EDIT: found the pills, thank god. G'night. <3
Im not sure what to do really. Things have been hard right now, and its tough. I think I might set the limit to 700, and then just go with that. I've still got 3 hours to go through before bed, and it's just soo hard. I'm hungry, but Im also distressed, warn down, and too tired to fight my feelings, but not tired enough to get sleep.
If I can find my sleeping pills though, then Im just going to take those and sleep. Yeah thats the plan.
EDIT: found the pills, thank god. G'night. <3
Monday, October 25, 2010
Hrmmm
Well today I had nothing until just now. I told myself I'd stay under 200 today to make up for tomorrow. And dammit I'm going to do that.
Though being broke sucks. I hate running out of safe foods, it makes me feel, well vulnerable. I don't get paid till wednesday. I was going to have tomorrow be my 'normal' 1k day to keep from binging. And then start another week of serious restriction. But payday is a trigger for me as far as binging is concerned. So I think for this week, I'm just going to keep on ABC until wednesday, and THEN have wed as my normal day, then start the new diet week on thursday, and continue like that. Having my normal day on payday may help with the binge craving that comes with that trigger.
So day 7 of ABC is 300 cals. All I've had today:
1 weight watchers shrimp marinara frozen dinner = 190
And I plan on hitting the bed in a half hour for sleep. I'll also save weighing myself till wednesday morning, and all that too. I hate that this week will be 2 days longer than the rest, but I dunno whatever. It's a better idea as far as working around my triggers.
Not sure what I'll have tomorrow. I'm in the process of working that out right now, and after that, sleep. G'night.
Though being broke sucks. I hate running out of safe foods, it makes me feel, well vulnerable. I don't get paid till wednesday. I was going to have tomorrow be my 'normal' 1k day to keep from binging. And then start another week of serious restriction. But payday is a trigger for me as far as binging is concerned. So I think for this week, I'm just going to keep on ABC until wednesday, and THEN have wed as my normal day, then start the new diet week on thursday, and continue like that. Having my normal day on payday may help with the binge craving that comes with that trigger.
So day 7 of ABC is 300 cals. All I've had today:
1 weight watchers shrimp marinara frozen dinner = 190
And I plan on hitting the bed in a half hour for sleep. I'll also save weighing myself till wednesday morning, and all that too. I hate that this week will be 2 days longer than the rest, but I dunno whatever. It's a better idea as far as working around my triggers.
Not sure what I'll have tomorrow. I'm in the process of working that out right now, and after that, sleep. G'night.
Sunday, October 24, 2010
Ugh failure
Ugh. Had nothing at all to eat for most of the day. I think more than anything I was afraid of eating because I might end up having to feel what I felt yesterday. All those cravings and urges to binge. I was worried eating would open pandora's box, and then i might binge and binge.
Today was a 200 day. I would put down what I ate, but I ended up eating a total of 310 calories. Going over by 110. It makes me feel fat. I should know thats not terrible, but I feel like a bad person for going over the set amount. I was doing perfect till today. 6th day on a 7 day long abc challenge, and I went over and screwed up. I hate it. I feel like a failure. My last day is a 300 day, and realistically I could just swap today with tomorrow and say okay tomorrow I'll just have 200. But that feels like I'm cheating just to feel better.
But even though it feels that way, I'm still going to aim for 200. I'll just be restricting myself to some egg whites and my can of weight watchers soup.
Ugh I know I wont gain logically, but I feel emotionally like oh my god, I'm going to put on 5 pounds just from 300 calories.
Sigh I'm going to bed before I ravage my cupboards.
Today was a 200 day. I would put down what I ate, but I ended up eating a total of 310 calories. Going over by 110. It makes me feel fat. I should know thats not terrible, but I feel like a bad person for going over the set amount. I was doing perfect till today. 6th day on a 7 day long abc challenge, and I went over and screwed up. I hate it. I feel like a failure. My last day is a 300 day, and realistically I could just swap today with tomorrow and say okay tomorrow I'll just have 200. But that feels like I'm cheating just to feel better.
But even though it feels that way, I'm still going to aim for 200. I'll just be restricting myself to some egg whites and my can of weight watchers soup.
Ugh I know I wont gain logically, but I feel emotionally like oh my god, I'm going to put on 5 pounds just from 300 calories.
Sigh I'm going to bed before I ravage my cupboards.
Saturday, October 23, 2010
day 5
Okay so not too bad today but it was hard. My roomies just bought light peanut butter, bread and tv dinners. God come nighttime I was sooo craving. And its only a 100 calorie day. I was fortunate enough to resist until now which is good because it's bedtime now. Anyway
ABC day 5: 100 calories
Breakfast: 1 egg white & 50g cantaloupe = 31
Snack: 1/4 package lime sugar free jello = 10
Lunch: 1/4 package lime sugar free jello = 10
Snack: 1/4 package lime sugar free jello = 10
Dinner: 1/4 package lime sugar free jello, & 1 egg white = 25
Extra: 1 pack of nestea active in my water = 5 (it has added electrolytes in it, so I figured it would be a good idea to have)
Total: 91
After my one week of abc, I'm going to give myself 1 day of semi normal eating. Like no more than 1000 calories which is still 750 under my metabolic rate, hence semi-normal. And I'll just allow myself whatever within that limit. I'm sure it will alleviate both stress on the mind, and stress on the body. The past two days Ive had cramping in my stomach. I'm sure its from the lack of food, so hopefully having a day break between each 7 days of calorie restriction will help. And I might go for some mexican some monday when i get my 'regular' day. I've had a hankering for quesadillas and fajitas.That kind of thing.
Well Im super bloody tired today. So bed for me.
ABC day 5: 100 calories
Breakfast: 1 egg white & 50g cantaloupe = 31
Snack: 1/4 package lime sugar free jello = 10
Lunch: 1/4 package lime sugar free jello = 10
Snack: 1/4 package lime sugar free jello = 10
Dinner: 1/4 package lime sugar free jello, & 1 egg white = 25
Extra: 1 pack of nestea active in my water = 5 (it has added electrolytes in it, so I figured it would be a good idea to have)
Total: 91
After my one week of abc, I'm going to give myself 1 day of semi normal eating. Like no more than 1000 calories which is still 750 under my metabolic rate, hence semi-normal. And I'll just allow myself whatever within that limit. I'm sure it will alleviate both stress on the mind, and stress on the body. The past two days Ive had cramping in my stomach. I'm sure its from the lack of food, so hopefully having a day break between each 7 days of calorie restriction will help. And I might go for some mexican some monday when i get my 'regular' day. I've had a hankering for quesadillas and fajitas.That kind of thing.
Well Im super bloody tired today. So bed for me.
Friday, October 22, 2010
Day for in the books.
Okay so today was good. Well it would have been better had my tax return came in, because then I would have actually had money. Ah well, it's giving me an excuse to walk to my post office every day. Anyway...
ABC day 4: 400
Breakfast: 1 pack of oatmeal with cinnamon and splenda = 124
Snack: 100g canteloupe = 34
Lunch: green tea with tsp splenda = 2
Dinner: 7 flatbread pita crackers with hummus = 180
Bedtime Snack: 4 saltines = 48
Total: 388
Done and done. I also made some tasty sugar free lime jello tonight for tomorrow. I made it like the package, but instead of the coup of cold water, I used a cup of diet sprite instead. Should taste yummy with the lime. I'm considering doing coke zero with my cherry jello too for cherry cola. Mmm jello is awesome. I'll of course have some real food tomorrow too, even though its a 100 cal day, but jello is my savior. =3
Anyway dead tired now. Time for sleep
ABC day 4: 400
Breakfast: 1 pack of oatmeal with cinnamon and splenda = 124
Snack: 100g canteloupe = 34
Lunch: green tea with tsp splenda = 2
Dinner: 7 flatbread pita crackers with hummus = 180
Bedtime Snack: 4 saltines = 48
Total: 388
Done and done. I also made some tasty sugar free lime jello tonight for tomorrow. I made it like the package, but instead of the coup of cold water, I used a cup of diet sprite instead. Should taste yummy with the lime. I'm considering doing coke zero with my cherry jello too for cherry cola. Mmm jello is awesome. I'll of course have some real food tomorrow too, even though its a 100 cal day, but jello is my savior. =3
Anyway dead tired now. Time for sleep
Thursday, October 21, 2010
Day 3 done, yey. Ugh tired
Ugh I found myself really tired today. Managed an hour long speed walk session, got in crunches and a bit of weight lifting. But yeah lethargic today. Got through though so I'm feeling really accomplished with that, and Im going to use that momentum to get me through tomorrow too.
ABC day 3: 300 calories
Breakfast: 3 egg whites, pam spray, splash of milk = 55
Snack: 1 apple sauce = 50
Lunch: 1 chicken and mini pasta soup at hand = 70
Dinner: 75g cooked chicken breast, 1 tsp ketchup 115g cantaloupe = 104
Total: 279
Hopefully I sleep decent tonight. I plan on taking another walk tomorrow afternoon, partially because I have to go to our post office to check if the mail is there. But also just because I want to. Trying to figure out what I was going to eat tomorrow was hard. Being broke I cant buy any foods, so I can't lean on having egg whites or anything like that every day because Ive got like 2 eggs left, and of course soups, tuna, and that kinda thing. I scrounged enough change today to get a bottle of coke zero and even a small cantaloupe. I needed some form of fruit or veg. I'm probably just going to end up having sugar free jello on my 100 day, which oh my gosh, falls on friday of all days. -.-
An well time for bed, I've at least got breakfast sorted for tomorrow, so I'll work on the rest of the day when I'm having that.
ABC day 3: 300 calories
Breakfast: 3 egg whites, pam spray, splash of milk = 55
Snack: 1 apple sauce = 50
Lunch: 1 chicken and mini pasta soup at hand = 70
Dinner: 75g cooked chicken breast, 1 tsp ketchup 115g cantaloupe = 104
Total: 279
Hopefully I sleep decent tonight. I plan on taking another walk tomorrow afternoon, partially because I have to go to our post office to check if the mail is there. But also just because I want to. Trying to figure out what I was going to eat tomorrow was hard. Being broke I cant buy any foods, so I can't lean on having egg whites or anything like that every day because Ive got like 2 eggs left, and of course soups, tuna, and that kinda thing. I scrounged enough change today to get a bottle of coke zero and even a small cantaloupe. I needed some form of fruit or veg. I'm probably just going to end up having sugar free jello on my 100 day, which oh my gosh, falls on friday of all days. -.-
An well time for bed, I've at least got breakfast sorted for tomorrow, so I'll work on the rest of the day when I'm having that.
Wednesday, October 20, 2010
day 2 over and done
Okay so day 2 went well as well. Fortunately life has been good today as well. The fiance managed to get out of working tomorrow so he will get a day off and that's good for him. We got to vid chat a while today and that made me feel good. It also put me off eating for most of the evening too.
ABC day 2: 500 calories
Breakfast: 1/2 can tuna with 1 tbsp mustard and 3 saltines = 103
Snack 7 hours later, while cooking: 2 tsp vanilla ice cream = 25
Dinner I guess: pam spray, 14 prawns, 85g mixed veggies = 150
Snack: 1 garden burger patty, 1 dill pickle sliced, 1 tsp mustard, 1 tsp ketchup, pam spray, 1 slice toast = 188
& 1/3 pack crystal light = 2
Total: 468
So yeah I guess that's about it. I did 20 minutes of exercise. 15 minutes of cardio and 5 minutes of crunches. I would have done more but I felt soooo tired, because I slept so poorly last night, despite not getting out of bed till 5pm today. But then again I went to bed at like 7am yesterday so whatever. Still slept like shit. -.-
Hopefully tonight is better since I'm getting to bed earlier.
ABC day 2: 500 calories
Breakfast: 1/2 can tuna with 1 tbsp mustard and 3 saltines = 103
Snack 7 hours later, while cooking: 2 tsp vanilla ice cream = 25
Dinner I guess: pam spray, 14 prawns, 85g mixed veggies = 150
Snack: 1 garden burger patty, 1 dill pickle sliced, 1 tsp mustard, 1 tsp ketchup, pam spray, 1 slice toast = 188
& 1/3 pack crystal light = 2
Total: 468
So yeah I guess that's about it. I did 20 minutes of exercise. 15 minutes of cardio and 5 minutes of crunches. I would have done more but I felt soooo tired, because I slept so poorly last night, despite not getting out of bed till 5pm today. But then again I went to bed at like 7am yesterday so whatever. Still slept like shit. -.-
Hopefully tonight is better since I'm getting to bed earlier.
Tuesday, October 19, 2010
Day 1 behind me
Okay so today was good. Felt pretty decent. Finished up a good 40 minute pilates, with 100 crunches, got in 7 8oz glasses of water, my vitamin, so yeah feeling good.
ABC Day 1: 500 calories
Breakfast: 2 egg whites, 1 slice toast, pam cooking spray = 109
Snack: 1/2 can tuna, 1 tsp miracle whip = 78
Lunch: 1 bag smart pop popcorn = 260
Dinner: 3 egg whites = 45
& 1 pack crystal light, spaced out through 6 cups of water = 5
Total: 497
Yeah so a good day food and exercise wise. It would have been a nicer day over all if my fiance actually came online to talk to me today, but he was really depressed or something along that line, because his job as his working 12 straight full time shifts this week. Which is just stupid.
I dunno its already like 5am I should seriously get some sleep
ABC Day 1: 500 calories
Breakfast: 2 egg whites, 1 slice toast, pam cooking spray = 109
Snack: 1/2 can tuna, 1 tsp miracle whip = 78
Lunch: 1 bag smart pop popcorn = 260
Dinner: 3 egg whites = 45
& 1 pack crystal light, spaced out through 6 cups of water = 5
Total: 497
Yeah so a good day food and exercise wise. It would have been a nicer day over all if my fiance actually came online to talk to me today, but he was really depressed or something along that line, because his job as his working 12 straight full time shifts this week. Which is just stupid.
I dunno its already like 5am I should seriously get some sleep
Monday, October 18, 2010
So the concert was fan-fucking-tastic. Serious, blew my mind. Amazing stuff. Settled on an outfit that was just kinda casual, but hid at least most of the areas i hate. Of course problems arose after the concert when friends decided to have a late dinner. And at that time all that was open were fast food joints. The problem is I can't NOT eat in front of them. So I unfortunately had to have something, and sadly our fast food places don't serve salads after a certain time of night. Ugh, has over 800 easily that day.
Today was great at first, I ate pretty much nothing at all right up until around 10pm, and then I ended up having a serving of potato chips, a couple tbsp of dip with them, and felt pretty lousy about that, but then ended up hungry again and had some salmon and peas. Had maybe at most 700 cals. So its not terrible, but ugh. I just totally should have had a choco-mint tea and if I was still hungry, then some dill pickles.
Starting ABC tomorrow for a minumum of a week. I might go longer depending on the week's progress, or I may switch up diets every week from my diet stash, to keep things fresh. So yeah, 500 day. All I have to eat though are egg whites, cans of tuna, cans of various soups, 6 50cal pots of apple sauce, a bag of prawns, a half a green bell pepper, and a 2 large carrots. Everything else in my house I wont touch on a diet. 75 cals for a slice of bread? no thanks. Pasta? yeah not happening. beef and chicken? Yeah I don't do meat (outside of seafood) Ugh. The worst of it is, I'm flat broke till weeks end, so I can't go out and buy fresh veg and fruit. Which sucks, because I need celery bad.
I might have like some egg whites and applesauce for breakfast, and maybe a can of tuna with mustard and chopped bell pepper, and maybe for dinner some garlic stir fry prawns. Not sure. I'll figure something out though. Make due I guess.
Today was great at first, I ate pretty much nothing at all right up until around 10pm, and then I ended up having a serving of potato chips, a couple tbsp of dip with them, and felt pretty lousy about that, but then ended up hungry again and had some salmon and peas. Had maybe at most 700 cals. So its not terrible, but ugh. I just totally should have had a choco-mint tea and if I was still hungry, then some dill pickles.
Starting ABC tomorrow for a minumum of a week. I might go longer depending on the week's progress, or I may switch up diets every week from my diet stash, to keep things fresh. So yeah, 500 day. All I have to eat though are egg whites, cans of tuna, cans of various soups, 6 50cal pots of apple sauce, a bag of prawns, a half a green bell pepper, and a 2 large carrots. Everything else in my house I wont touch on a diet. 75 cals for a slice of bread? no thanks. Pasta? yeah not happening. beef and chicken? Yeah I don't do meat (outside of seafood) Ugh. The worst of it is, I'm flat broke till weeks end, so I can't go out and buy fresh veg and fruit. Which sucks, because I need celery bad.
I might have like some egg whites and applesauce for breakfast, and maybe a can of tuna with mustard and chopped bell pepper, and maybe for dinner some garlic stir fry prawns. Not sure. I'll figure something out though. Make due I guess.
Saturday, October 16, 2010
OMG rant-tastic
So it's 4:30am and I'm still up. Though this is most likely partially due to the fact that I'm going to an anberlin concert come tonight. YAY. But I feel terrible about it because my god, they're my favorite band, and I feel like such a fat cow that I don't look good in ANYTHING.
Half my wardrobe is out of commission. All my clothes fit 120 pound me. Not 138 pound me. not to mention last month I bought size L shirts (6 of them to be exact) that are so adorable, and I assumed they'd fit me, but I gained in my bust and I haven't worn them once. My 3 pairs of size 5 skinny jeans don't fit me anymore and its pissing me off. I really long to fit into these clothes again. I hate wearing stretch and baggy tanks. I refuse to by new clothes because it just reinforces being at this weight. I don't ever want anything over even 125 to EVER be acceptable. I refuse to cater to my new size. I have this beautiful pear of size 3 skinnies that I hope to one day fit into again. I only ever worse them once, when I was 115, and they were still tight around the thighs. Haven't touched 'em since. But they are definitely close to what would be considered my ultimate target clothes to get into. A future to look towards anyway. I keep them hung on my wall because the legs are so slender on them and its such a great reminder to stay strong.
For now though I'm focusing on just being able to fit into my size 5s again. That's my first goal. got to take things in small strides.
Yesterday food was was under 500 cals, which is nice. I'm surprised that it was easy to get back into that groove. Today was around 720, but even then I'm not going to complain.
what I do have issues with is my inactivity. I'm one of those people that HATES exercise. I'm not at all like my fiance, who loves, enjoys and finds stress relief in working out. I just hate it. But with the colder months coming, ugh. I can't use it as an excuse though. I find enjoyment in DDR, and I invested ages ago in a metal pad, so its sturdy for butt kicking cardio workouts. The only problem with workouts, is that I get bored easily. I can only do things for so long. It'd be wonderful if I had people to go with. Heck I've got a free pass for the facilities at our leisure center in the city here, and its got a big lap pool, AND and exercise room upstairs with all kinds of weight training equipment and tons of cardio machines. But its a 50 minute walk from my house. Which I SHOULD use as a great means of extra calorie burning. I just HATE working out. The problem is calorie restriction alone isn't going to drop my body fat % really much at all because I lose muscle and fat around a ratio of 35/65 roughly I figure. Ive got a yoga mat at home, a jump rope, dumbbells. I've got the equipment, but oh god what I wouldn't give for an elliptical or stationary bike in my house. I REALLY REALLY should take advantage of my free gym access though. So my goal is 30 minutes of exercise that don't include walking, 3x next week, with one trip to the gym. That's the goal. I'm going to do what I can to hold myself to it. If I do more, great, but the goal is what it is. I don't have to burn a certain amount of cals, I don't have to like it, I don't have to feel great doing it, I just got to give the effort.
I'm totally ranting, but you see how it is. I'm just excited for tomorrow. I wish my fiance were going with me instead of my little bro. My brother hasn't even heard anberlin, and I know my hun would really appreciate the music more. I'm just going to immerse myself in the music, and hopefully not get caught up in my appearance. Although tbh, I've spent 3 hours already today tearing apart my closet in the hopes of finding an outfit that first off fits, and second off, hides all the fat disgusting me. Quite a challenge indeed.
Anyway I should at least try and get some rest. And hopefully I'll be so jazzed up tomorrow from the tunes that I won't need to eat. <3
Half my wardrobe is out of commission. All my clothes fit 120 pound me. Not 138 pound me. not to mention last month I bought size L shirts (6 of them to be exact) that are so adorable, and I assumed they'd fit me, but I gained in my bust and I haven't worn them once. My 3 pairs of size 5 skinny jeans don't fit me anymore and its pissing me off. I really long to fit into these clothes again. I hate wearing stretch and baggy tanks. I refuse to by new clothes because it just reinforces being at this weight. I don't ever want anything over even 125 to EVER be acceptable. I refuse to cater to my new size. I have this beautiful pear of size 3 skinnies that I hope to one day fit into again. I only ever worse them once, when I was 115, and they were still tight around the thighs. Haven't touched 'em since. But they are definitely close to what would be considered my ultimate target clothes to get into. A future to look towards anyway. I keep them hung on my wall because the legs are so slender on them and its such a great reminder to stay strong.
For now though I'm focusing on just being able to fit into my size 5s again. That's my first goal. got to take things in small strides.
Yesterday food was was under 500 cals, which is nice. I'm surprised that it was easy to get back into that groove. Today was around 720, but even then I'm not going to complain.
what I do have issues with is my inactivity. I'm one of those people that HATES exercise. I'm not at all like my fiance, who loves, enjoys and finds stress relief in working out. I just hate it. But with the colder months coming, ugh. I can't use it as an excuse though. I find enjoyment in DDR, and I invested ages ago in a metal pad, so its sturdy for butt kicking cardio workouts. The only problem with workouts, is that I get bored easily. I can only do things for so long. It'd be wonderful if I had people to go with. Heck I've got a free pass for the facilities at our leisure center in the city here, and its got a big lap pool, AND and exercise room upstairs with all kinds of weight training equipment and tons of cardio machines. But its a 50 minute walk from my house. Which I SHOULD use as a great means of extra calorie burning. I just HATE working out. The problem is calorie restriction alone isn't going to drop my body fat % really much at all because I lose muscle and fat around a ratio of 35/65 roughly I figure. Ive got a yoga mat at home, a jump rope, dumbbells. I've got the equipment, but oh god what I wouldn't give for an elliptical or stationary bike in my house. I REALLY REALLY should take advantage of my free gym access though. So my goal is 30 minutes of exercise that don't include walking, 3x next week, with one trip to the gym. That's the goal. I'm going to do what I can to hold myself to it. If I do more, great, but the goal is what it is. I don't have to burn a certain amount of cals, I don't have to like it, I don't have to feel great doing it, I just got to give the effort.
I'm totally ranting, but you see how it is. I'm just excited for tomorrow. I wish my fiance were going with me instead of my little bro. My brother hasn't even heard anberlin, and I know my hun would really appreciate the music more. I'm just going to immerse myself in the music, and hopefully not get caught up in my appearance. Although tbh, I've spent 3 hours already today tearing apart my closet in the hopes of finding an outfit that first off fits, and second off, hides all the fat disgusting me. Quite a challenge indeed.
Anyway I should at least try and get some rest. And hopefully I'll be so jazzed up tomorrow from the tunes that I won't need to eat. <3
Thursday, October 14, 2010
Ugh I'm a failure.
So my god. What medication does to a person. A gauntlet of anti-depressants and anti-psychotics later, and I'm fucking 139 pounds. What The Hell. I feel like such a fat fuck. Even my body fat % is like 25. BAH!
Seriously it was the worst experience of my life. I'm really getting back on track. I feel so disgusting. I'm working my ass off, despite the fact that I hate exercise. I don't care. People have to do things they hate for what they know is going to make them feel better in the long run.
Not sure the plan yet, but when i do know, I'll post.
Seriously it was the worst experience of my life. I'm really getting back on track. I feel so disgusting. I'm working my ass off, despite the fact that I hate exercise. I don't care. People have to do things they hate for what they know is going to make them feel better in the long run.
Not sure the plan yet, but when i do know, I'll post.
Monday, July 19, 2010
ABC Day 1 - 500
Just started today. So far it's been going well. Started my day off with an apple and some yogurt, and then hit the gym and did some light biking, and the eliptical. In total (including the walk there and back) I burned 963 calories. After I came home I had my post workout lunch, and then about an hour later I was really weak.
I found myself about 50 minutes ago, wandering over to the store with the last 10 bucks I have to my name till wednesday. I ended up wrestling with myself for a half hour in the store, about whether to get something. I couldn't end up committing to fruits and veg, but I also didn't cave and buy whole big bags of chips, and cupcakes, and those kinds of things. I ended up coming home with two bottles of coke zero, a box of 100 calorie snack pack things, one of those really tiny bags of bbq chips, and some sushi. I haven't touched any of it. I'm not feeling as energyless as i was, but now I'm at home wondering whether I should eat these things. Part of me says that it's okay because I burned so many calories at the gym. The other part of me says that it's okay to waste the food and that I don't want to undo the hard work I put in.
Usually with calorie restriction, I also increase it with half the caloric expenditure from exercise. So the 500 for today + 481 from half my exercise. But I think I'm scared that if I eat just one of the things I picked up, that I'm going to just open up pandora's box and shovel everything else in. *sigh*
I'll edit this post later with the actual daily total before I go to bed. Hopefully I wont end up stuffing my face
I found myself about 50 minutes ago, wandering over to the store with the last 10 bucks I have to my name till wednesday. I ended up wrestling with myself for a half hour in the store, about whether to get something. I couldn't end up committing to fruits and veg, but I also didn't cave and buy whole big bags of chips, and cupcakes, and those kinds of things. I ended up coming home with two bottles of coke zero, a box of 100 calorie snack pack things, one of those really tiny bags of bbq chips, and some sushi. I haven't touched any of it. I'm not feeling as energyless as i was, but now I'm at home wondering whether I should eat these things. Part of me says that it's okay because I burned so many calories at the gym. The other part of me says that it's okay to waste the food and that I don't want to undo the hard work I put in.
Usually with calorie restriction, I also increase it with half the caloric expenditure from exercise. So the 500 for today + 481 from half my exercise. But I think I'm scared that if I eat just one of the things I picked up, that I'm going to just open up pandora's box and shovel everything else in. *sigh*
I'll edit this post later with the actual daily total before I go to bed. Hopefully I wont end up stuffing my face
Sunday, July 18, 2010
Hrmmm
So went 3 1/2 days on the fast. Not bad.
Plan on starting ABC on monday. I remember the success I had on it before and how it really helped me get down to the 100's before. So it's motivating using personal success. This time I'm really sticking to it. I'll also unlike last time, be exercising. 4 days a week (mon, tues, wed, fri) I'll be hitting the gym for 1-2 hours of cardio (amount depends on calories for the day.) and then for the remaining 3 days (thurs, sat, sun) I'll be at home doing strength training, abs, and pilates. Throwing in 30 day shred workout on days where I have enough energy.
Taking the risperidone I'm on, makes it hard to really shift weight. It's fucking with my metabolism more so than just eating habits alone. So I'm hoping that by incorporating the exercise, that it will aid in that so I can see results at a speed I'm content with.
Ugh, can't believe Im up this early (9am). I'm a stay up till 4am, get up at noon-1pm kinda gal. I dont do mornings. They make me feel physically sick to my stomach. But whatever. I'm going to use the time to get in some 30 day shred and pilates before D&D today. But food wise today, I'll be limiting myself to 600 calories. I don't want to fast because I'll just slow down my metabolism right before ABC and that's no good.
Plan on starting ABC on monday. I remember the success I had on it before and how it really helped me get down to the 100's before. So it's motivating using personal success. This time I'm really sticking to it. I'll also unlike last time, be exercising. 4 days a week (mon, tues, wed, fri) I'll be hitting the gym for 1-2 hours of cardio (amount depends on calories for the day.) and then for the remaining 3 days (thurs, sat, sun) I'll be at home doing strength training, abs, and pilates. Throwing in 30 day shred workout on days where I have enough energy.
Taking the risperidone I'm on, makes it hard to really shift weight. It's fucking with my metabolism more so than just eating habits alone. So I'm hoping that by incorporating the exercise, that it will aid in that so I can see results at a speed I'm content with.
Ugh, can't believe Im up this early (9am). I'm a stay up till 4am, get up at noon-1pm kinda gal. I dont do mornings. They make me feel physically sick to my stomach. But whatever. I'm going to use the time to get in some 30 day shred and pilates before D&D today. But food wise today, I'll be limiting myself to 600 calories. I don't want to fast because I'll just slow down my metabolism right before ABC and that's no good.
Wednesday, July 14, 2010
Day 2
Halfway through day 2 of my fast. I'm actually trying to shoot for 10 days if i can, but 6 is the bare minimum. No cravings at all today so far. Even walked into the grocer for some tea, and wasn't tempted by anything. Day 2 is always easier for me than the first day. Tomorrow I have d&d that I play, so I'll be out most all the day and that should make it easy to resist food.
Hoping eveyone's day is well and full of enjoyment.
Hoping eveyone's day is well and full of enjoyment.
Tuesday, July 13, 2010
Hmm
Today wasnt bad at all. Managed to have around 300 calories and less than 15g of carbs. Of course I think I'm just going to find something else to do. Maybe I might fast for the rest of the week. I'm pretty worked up with fear about if i let myself eat, am I going to purge again. I was thinking about doing it after I had dinner. It wasn't much food at all but those uncomfortable feelings of fullness kept me thinking about it.
I'm just going to stay at home, and cleanse myself with a water fast over the next 3-6 days. It might be the only thing right now that will shift the weight i gained on remeron off, since I'm taking an anti-psychotic right now that's been making it hard to lose weight. Thankfully I'm not gaining on it, and Ive taken it for close to a month now.
Of course at it's current dose it isn't helping. I see my doctor on Wednesday so I'll ask him about maybe trying something that doesn't have weight gain as a side effect. It's just too hard to try and achieve the frame I once had long ago, when the shit I'm taking either tosses me into the opposite, or does what this is doing now, which is hindering the loss.
I dunno I'm all over the place. If fasting is the only thing that is going to help me lose the med weight, and clear my mind and give me distance from things like thoughts of purging, then that's what I'll do.
I'm just going to stay at home, and cleanse myself with a water fast over the next 3-6 days. It might be the only thing right now that will shift the weight i gained on remeron off, since I'm taking an anti-psychotic right now that's been making it hard to lose weight. Thankfully I'm not gaining on it, and Ive taken it for close to a month now.
Of course at it's current dose it isn't helping. I see my doctor on Wednesday so I'll ask him about maybe trying something that doesn't have weight gain as a side effect. It's just too hard to try and achieve the frame I once had long ago, when the shit I'm taking either tosses me into the opposite, or does what this is doing now, which is hindering the loss.
I dunno I'm all over the place. If fasting is the only thing that is going to help me lose the med weight, and clear my mind and give me distance from things like thoughts of purging, then that's what I'll do.
Monday, July 12, 2010
Fast day = dissapointments in myself
Second day of the fast went well till around midnight. I ended up eating an excess of food in the form of apple turnovers, potato salad, and bread with butter. It ended up coming out to around 1000 calories in the process of about 15 minutes.
Of course I purged it all immediately. I really just couldn't deal with all the food inside me. I feel terrible about purging it actually, since I made a promise to stop doing it. Which I had kept for a good 5 months. But then I went and broke it, and no I feel lousy about it. I mean physically I feel great. I feel empty and light, and even a bit light headed which is something I've always liked about purging. Of course purging is annoying for me too. The worst of it being when the vomit expels through my nose as well as my mouth.
Tonight wasn't a pleasant binge/purge either. The apple mix in the turnovers sunk at the base of my stomach and it's sticky texture made the bread come up very thick, since I didn't drink any water till after i ate. Also when it did come up, it burned badly because of the acidic nature of the apple.
Yeah seriously everyone, just don't do it. I very much do not condone purging whether vomiting, or laxative and diuretic use, and even excessive amounts of exercise I don't really recommend on low cal diets, because the serious lack of protein won't give your muscles what they need to repair themselves after a workout that's intense and strength based.
It's why I'm doing this ketogenic thing, so that I can build muscle and burn fat as effectively as i can. It's set up to where I'll get around 55-60g of protein which is adequate for my body size.
Anyway I'm exhausted, and I really want to end this depressing day so that I can wake up tomorrow, have my egg whites and head to the gym.
Of course I purged it all immediately. I really just couldn't deal with all the food inside me. I feel terrible about purging it actually, since I made a promise to stop doing it. Which I had kept for a good 5 months. But then I went and broke it, and no I feel lousy about it. I mean physically I feel great. I feel empty and light, and even a bit light headed which is something I've always liked about purging. Of course purging is annoying for me too. The worst of it being when the vomit expels through my nose as well as my mouth.
Tonight wasn't a pleasant binge/purge either. The apple mix in the turnovers sunk at the base of my stomach and it's sticky texture made the bread come up very thick, since I didn't drink any water till after i ate. Also when it did come up, it burned badly because of the acidic nature of the apple.
Yeah seriously everyone, just don't do it. I very much do not condone purging whether vomiting, or laxative and diuretic use, and even excessive amounts of exercise I don't really recommend on low cal diets, because the serious lack of protein won't give your muscles what they need to repair themselves after a workout that's intense and strength based.
It's why I'm doing this ketogenic thing, so that I can build muscle and burn fat as effectively as i can. It's set up to where I'll get around 55-60g of protein which is adequate for my body size.
Anyway I'm exhausted, and I really want to end this depressing day so that I can wake up tomorrow, have my egg whites and head to the gym.
Sunday, July 11, 2010
Fresh start
Apologies for not updating here. It's been hard. The medication I'm on is making it so difficult to shift weight no matter how well I'm doing. And that is rather discouraging to me, so it makes it difficult for me to desire posting regularly.
So I've starting over. Saturdays are always like my new week. So I've fasted for today. Rather effortlessly. I spent the whole day doing D&D and stuff so all I had was tons of water. Made sure to have lots since it's been 85-92 degrees for the past 4 days.
As for tomorrow, a different group of friends and I have another role-playing game. So I will be taking the opportunity to fast on Sunday as well.
Then up until next Saturday (so for Monday, Tuesday, Wednesday, Thursday, & Friday) I will be restricting my calorie intake to 400 or less, and restricting my carb intake to less than 20g a day. Pretty much low carbs to put myself into ketosis, and going to have high protein (or high for that calorie level anyway) as I will be strength training a different set of muscles each day (arms one day, legs one day, stomach one day, etc). I'll also be doing 30 minutes of good cardio each day to help burn the fat.
So that's the plan really. I find that right now, its very hard to just calorie restrict. Abstaining from food completely is easy and effortless lately, but the minute I've allowed myself to have something, I tend to overeat. Specifically carbs and sweets. Whereas I'm limiting carbs and no sweets. Mostly I will be having tuna, tofu and tofu hotdogs, egg whites and shrimp. I may have like a lipton soup at hand too for lunch since the ones I get are 10g in carbs.
Anyway I'm exhausted. Time for bed.
So I've starting over. Saturdays are always like my new week. So I've fasted for today. Rather effortlessly. I spent the whole day doing D&D and stuff so all I had was tons of water. Made sure to have lots since it's been 85-92 degrees for the past 4 days.
As for tomorrow, a different group of friends and I have another role-playing game. So I will be taking the opportunity to fast on Sunday as well.
Then up until next Saturday (so for Monday, Tuesday, Wednesday, Thursday, & Friday) I will be restricting my calorie intake to 400 or less, and restricting my carb intake to less than 20g a day. Pretty much low carbs to put myself into ketosis, and going to have high protein (or high for that calorie level anyway) as I will be strength training a different set of muscles each day (arms one day, legs one day, stomach one day, etc). I'll also be doing 30 minutes of good cardio each day to help burn the fat.
So that's the plan really. I find that right now, its very hard to just calorie restrict. Abstaining from food completely is easy and effortless lately, but the minute I've allowed myself to have something, I tend to overeat. Specifically carbs and sweets. Whereas I'm limiting carbs and no sweets. Mostly I will be having tuna, tofu and tofu hotdogs, egg whites and shrimp. I may have like a lipton soup at hand too for lunch since the ones I get are 10g in carbs.
Anyway I'm exhausted. Time for bed.
Monday, June 28, 2010
Weekends
Okay well friday and saturday were terrible. Had way too much food.
Friday - My older friend decided to get a damn banana creme pie to eat after the gaming session. Of course he treats me like a daughter/little sister, so I said I didn't want it, but he knew I didn't have anything to eat all today when I was there, so he told me to eat the thing. It was a quarter of it too. I tried to get out of it, like saying my stomach hurt, and he just said yeah cause i haven't had food yet. After that it was just one thing after another. The pie itself was 700+ calories and then I had a handful of chips, and some artichoke salad. Over 1000 calories probably.
Saturday - I drank this day. Had about 4 Mike's hard pink lemonades, then had chips, burritos and potato salad. Ened up eating over 2k in calories counting the alcohol. Ugh. Disgusting. Being drunk is fun till you realize drinks have calories and the inhibition makes you more likely to eat.
Sunday - Wanted to fast this day. Didn't go out to my game yesterday because of some drama from the day before. Just didn't want to end up irritated. Had nothing till night time where I had a 300 cal bag of popcorn and then a home made egg mcmuffin and a slice of skimed milk cheese. Averaged to about 550 calories. Not terrible I suppose, but I wanted to fast.
Today I'm starting a 200, 400, 600, 400, 200 diet. The way it works out is that even if you overeat, still add 200 to each day and decrease 200. then for the next week you take the total calories of the 5 days, then subtract 1800 from that and whats left divide by 5 and subtract that from each days totals, then do the same thing with +200 the first couple days and -200 the next.
for example say you overeat the 200 on monday
1st Week:
Monday: 353 cal. Tuesday: 553 cal. Wednesday: 753 cal. Thursday: 553 cal. Friday: 353 cal.
Week Total: 2562 cal.
Now, the math:
2562 – 1800 = 765 cal
765 : 5 = 153 cal.
2nd Week:
Monday: 200 – 153 = 47cal
Tuesday: 400 – 153 = 247 cal
Wednesday: 600 – 153 = 447 cal
Thursday: 400 – 153 = 247 cal
Friday: 200 – 153 = 47 cal
3rd Week:
Go back to 200, 400, 600, 400, 200.
This will for me, remind me of the consequences of overeating. I aim to exercise at least 30 minutes every day. Doesn't matter what I do, but if I can hit the gym, then that's great. If not I'll do at home workouts, do some light jump rope, do my exercise videos, whatever.
But yeah Ive got a plan now. I'll do that for as long as I feel up to it. If it becomes to difficult or too easy I'll adjust accordingly.
Friday - My older friend decided to get a damn banana creme pie to eat after the gaming session. Of course he treats me like a daughter/little sister, so I said I didn't want it, but he knew I didn't have anything to eat all today when I was there, so he told me to eat the thing. It was a quarter of it too. I tried to get out of it, like saying my stomach hurt, and he just said yeah cause i haven't had food yet. After that it was just one thing after another. The pie itself was 700+ calories and then I had a handful of chips, and some artichoke salad. Over 1000 calories probably.
Saturday - I drank this day. Had about 4 Mike's hard pink lemonades, then had chips, burritos and potato salad. Ened up eating over 2k in calories counting the alcohol. Ugh. Disgusting. Being drunk is fun till you realize drinks have calories and the inhibition makes you more likely to eat.
Sunday - Wanted to fast this day. Didn't go out to my game yesterday because of some drama from the day before. Just didn't want to end up irritated. Had nothing till night time where I had a 300 cal bag of popcorn and then a home made egg mcmuffin and a slice of skimed milk cheese. Averaged to about 550 calories. Not terrible I suppose, but I wanted to fast.
Today I'm starting a 200, 400, 600, 400, 200 diet. The way it works out is that even if you overeat, still add 200 to each day and decrease 200. then for the next week you take the total calories of the 5 days, then subtract 1800 from that and whats left divide by 5 and subtract that from each days totals, then do the same thing with +200 the first couple days and -200 the next.
for example say you overeat the 200 on monday
1st Week:
Monday: 353 cal. Tuesday: 553 cal. Wednesday: 753 cal. Thursday: 553 cal. Friday: 353 cal.
Week Total: 2562 cal.
Now, the math:
2562 – 1800 = 765 cal
765 : 5 = 153 cal.
2nd Week:
Monday: 200 – 153 = 47cal
Tuesday: 400 – 153 = 247 cal
Wednesday: 600 – 153 = 447 cal
Thursday: 400 – 153 = 247 cal
Friday: 200 – 153 = 47 cal
3rd Week:
Go back to 200, 400, 600, 400, 200.
This will for me, remind me of the consequences of overeating. I aim to exercise at least 30 minutes every day. Doesn't matter what I do, but if I can hit the gym, then that's great. If not I'll do at home workouts, do some light jump rope, do my exercise videos, whatever.
But yeah Ive got a plan now. I'll do that for as long as I feel up to it. If it becomes to difficult or too easy I'll adjust accordingly.
Thursday, June 24, 2010
Liquid Diet - Final Day (Fast Day 1)
Today was so easy. I didn't get to walk into town to the mall, but even still, the day was great. Found a copy of an old game I've been looking for since before christmas, and got a nice dice set for roleplaying tomorrow. It's a cool swirly orange color. Got to walk around the malls and that proved some nice exercise.
Intake for today was:
Loads and loads of water (it was hot out today and the water was so nice)
Coke zero
and right now I'm enjoying some peppermint tea before I head to bed here.
So yeah it was easy enough for me. I felt hungry around mid day, but after that subsided, I just never thought about food.
Anyway got plenty to keep me occupied for the next 3 days, so fasting should be no problem for the remainder of the days. G'night.
Intake for today was:
Loads and loads of water (it was hot out today and the water was so nice)
Coke zero
and right now I'm enjoying some peppermint tea before I head to bed here.
So yeah it was easy enough for me. I felt hungry around mid day, but after that subsided, I just never thought about food.
Anyway got plenty to keep me occupied for the next 3 days, so fasting should be no problem for the remainder of the days. G'night.
Liquid Diet - Day 4 (ABC Day 3 - 300 cal)
Sigh. Stressed out. Feeling disgusted and just bleh.
God I can't even log what I had. It was terrible. Ate out with friends and had to have fish and chips since we only went to a fish and chips place. So pissed. It was easily over 1000 calories. Ugh. I'm so dissapointed in myself.
Total: 1000+ calories
On the up side I did bust my ass tonight working out, so that I could at least look back and say I did something. But still. I need to crack down here and refocus again. I'll be fasting for 4 days in an attempt to refocus myself. Things that will be allowed on my fast:
Coke Zero
Diet Rootbeer
Loads of Water (its been really hot here lately)
Tea (either hot or chilled, but without milk or sugar)
And possibly some Orange Juice diluted in water for when I get faint.
So for Thursday, Friday, Saturday, & Sunday that's the plan. F/S/S should be easiest since I have 3 days of spending all day at friend's houses doing d&d and white wolf role-playing games. So that will keep me very busy. Tomorrow I plan to walk to the mall, which is a 5.4km walk for me. I want to try on clothes and use it to motivate and focus me. Plus the 11km walk is sure to give me some nice exercise. If it isn't too late when I get back into town, I will brave the bikini and go swimming at the pool. I need to subject myself to that kind of embarrassment I think. Plus hey, more exercise.
So after the 4 day fast, I'm not sure what to go in to. Possibly restart ABC, or maybe I will thumb through my diet book and try something else. Or I could take some time to create something completely personal too. If anyone has any thoughts or ideas, feel free to comment with them. I love imput.
Going to go soak my sore muscles in the tub for a while before i head off to bed. I want to be well rested for the treck.
God I can't even log what I had. It was terrible. Ate out with friends and had to have fish and chips since we only went to a fish and chips place. So pissed. It was easily over 1000 calories. Ugh. I'm so dissapointed in myself.
Total: 1000+ calories
On the up side I did bust my ass tonight working out, so that I could at least look back and say I did something. But still. I need to crack down here and refocus again. I'll be fasting for 4 days in an attempt to refocus myself. Things that will be allowed on my fast:
Coke Zero
Diet Rootbeer
Loads of Water (its been really hot here lately)
Tea (either hot or chilled, but without milk or sugar)
And possibly some Orange Juice diluted in water for when I get faint.
So for Thursday, Friday, Saturday, & Sunday that's the plan. F/S/S should be easiest since I have 3 days of spending all day at friend's houses doing d&d and white wolf role-playing games. So that will keep me very busy. Tomorrow I plan to walk to the mall, which is a 5.4km walk for me. I want to try on clothes and use it to motivate and focus me. Plus the 11km walk is sure to give me some nice exercise. If it isn't too late when I get back into town, I will brave the bikini and go swimming at the pool. I need to subject myself to that kind of embarrassment I think. Plus hey, more exercise.
So after the 4 day fast, I'm not sure what to go in to. Possibly restart ABC, or maybe I will thumb through my diet book and try something else. Or I could take some time to create something completely personal too. If anyone has any thoughts or ideas, feel free to comment with them. I love imput.
Going to go soak my sore muscles in the tub for a while before i head off to bed. I want to be well rested for the treck.
Tuesday, June 22, 2010
Liquid Diet - Day 3 complete (ABC Day 2 - 500 cal)
Day 3 done. Today was nice. Not to difficult I don't think. Though some urges do rise every now and then, mostly because I get paid at midnight and with money comes the urge to spend. But anyway.
Breakfast: Water - 0
Snack: 1/2 cup mango peach juice diluted in water - 45
Lunch: 1 large can tomato soup - 216
Snack: Coke zero and green tea - 0
Dinner: 1 carton of Knorr orange soup - 180
Total: 441 calories
So today was decent. Got a ton of exercise when I went hiking with a friend. Haven't been hiking in ages. Felt great and I burned 960 calories doing so. Depressed a bit because the numbers didn't shift today and I feel like I might have hit a snag. But hopefully that activity and those burned calories get the metabolism going and shift the number for tomorrow.
Breakfast: Water - 0
Snack: 1/2 cup mango peach juice diluted in water - 45
Lunch: 1 large can tomato soup - 216
Snack: Coke zero and green tea - 0
Dinner: 1 carton of Knorr orange soup - 180
Total: 441 calories
So today was decent. Got a ton of exercise when I went hiking with a friend. Haven't been hiking in ages. Felt great and I burned 960 calories doing so. Depressed a bit because the numbers didn't shift today and I feel like I might have hit a snag. But hopefully that activity and those burned calories get the metabolism going and shift the number for tomorrow.
Monday, June 21, 2010
Liquid Diet - Day 2 complete (started abc today)
So yeah second day of the liquid diet till the end of thursday is done. I also tacked on ABC as well to give myself more restriction on how many calories I could have. Plus I can continue it, even after the liquid diet is done. So anyways.
Breakfast: 1 juice box of orange juice diluted in 1 1/2 cups water - 90
Snack: Coke zero - 0
Lunch: 1 can of tomato soup - 155
Snack: lots of water and a green tea - 0
Dinner: 1 carton of potato leek soup spread out over the rest of evening - 220
Total: 465 calories
So yeah I stayed under the 500 limit for ABC today, as well as stuck to all liquid. It was hard though. When I went to the store for soup, I looked at everything in the store. I got mega urges just to buy things like cake, chips and dip, ice cream. Just rubbish really. But bearing in mind that I'm broke till Wednesday, I had to think to myself if this was really the way I wanted to spend my last 20 bucks. So I pulled myself up, and started to gather fruit and veg, since they are sectioned near the chips and ice creams. I bought 1/2 pound of grapes, 1/2 pound of cherries, a head of romaine lettuce. After I had it all bagged up, I thought it would look silly if i put it all back, therefore had to buy it. Which prevented me from having the funds available to buy junk. So with that and my soups in hand I made it home in one piece.
Though it's still a struggle. I'm already getting tired of soup and juice every day, and I just have urges to go into the kitchen and eat things like deep fried tempura, french bread with butter, or waffles and peanut butter. But I'm just drinking my tea and staying strong.
In fact I think I'll hit bed early tonight to ensure nothing goes wrong.
Breakfast: 1 juice box of orange juice diluted in 1 1/2 cups water - 90
Snack: Coke zero - 0
Lunch: 1 can of tomato soup - 155
Snack: lots of water and a green tea - 0
Dinner: 1 carton of potato leek soup spread out over the rest of evening - 220
Total: 465 calories
So yeah I stayed under the 500 limit for ABC today, as well as stuck to all liquid. It was hard though. When I went to the store for soup, I looked at everything in the store. I got mega urges just to buy things like cake, chips and dip, ice cream. Just rubbish really. But bearing in mind that I'm broke till Wednesday, I had to think to myself if this was really the way I wanted to spend my last 20 bucks. So I pulled myself up, and started to gather fruit and veg, since they are sectioned near the chips and ice creams. I bought 1/2 pound of grapes, 1/2 pound of cherries, a head of romaine lettuce. After I had it all bagged up, I thought it would look silly if i put it all back, therefore had to buy it. Which prevented me from having the funds available to buy junk. So with that and my soups in hand I made it home in one piece.
Though it's still a struggle. I'm already getting tired of soup and juice every day, and I just have urges to go into the kitchen and eat things like deep fried tempura, french bread with butter, or waffles and peanut butter. But I'm just drinking my tea and staying strong.
In fact I think I'll hit bed early tonight to ensure nothing goes wrong.
Sunday, June 20, 2010
Liquid Diet - Day 1 Complete
So day one is complete on my liquid diet till end of thursday. Here's what I had
Breakfast: 1/2 cup blueberry carrot juice diluted in 1 cup water - 45
Snack: Lots of teas and coke zero - 0
Lunch: Peppermint tea - 0
Snack: 1/4 cup unsweetened apple juice in 1/2 cup water - 23
Dinner: 1 carton of potato leek soup spread out over the rest of evening - 220
Total: 288 calories
Had no troubles or urges at all today, which was relieving. I'm off to go play some video games and keep these hands busy for another 2 hours till bed time. G'night.
Breakfast: 1/2 cup blueberry carrot juice diluted in 1 cup water - 45
Snack: Lots of teas and coke zero - 0
Lunch: Peppermint tea - 0
Snack: 1/4 cup unsweetened apple juice in 1/2 cup water - 23
Dinner: 1 carton of potato leek soup spread out over the rest of evening - 220
Total: 288 calories
Had no troubles or urges at all today, which was relieving. I'm off to go play some video games and keep these hands busy for another 2 hours till bed time. G'night.
Welcome
So welcome lovelies to my blog. I'll just be keeping this here to chronicle my diets and weight loss, and how i felt in correlation to my eating and what not. Just a place to sort it all out. My name is Karen, and I'm 27 years of age.
So yeah anyway, on with it eh.
Today marks the start of a liquid fast/diet till the end of thursday. Calories aren't too important, but I have no plans to go over 400 on any given day.
My rules for such are as follows:
No foods that have anything solid. Pureed soups are fine.
Protein Shakes are fine as well
Juices without added sugar, as well as my lovely coke zero and herbal teas are acceptable too.
And lots of tasty water, with 5 cal packs added if I choose to.
I'll update you on today as I've completed it. Ta ta
So yeah anyway, on with it eh.
Today marks the start of a liquid fast/diet till the end of thursday. Calories aren't too important, but I have no plans to go over 400 on any given day.
My rules for such are as follows:
No foods that have anything solid. Pureed soups are fine.
Protein Shakes are fine as well
Juices without added sugar, as well as my lovely coke zero and herbal teas are acceptable too.
And lots of tasty water, with 5 cal packs added if I choose to.
I'll update you on today as I've completed it. Ta ta
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